The older I get (and I just marked one more journey around the sun a few weeks ago) the more I notice (irritatingly) how many mirrors we have in our home. In my “travels” around the condo, I am horrified to realize how many mirrors we have…in every room!
Mirrors aren’t my friend, at the best of times, and now it seems they are everywhere…lying to me.
Why do I say the mirror is “lying”?
I look in the mirror expecting to “see” and I can’t…I now have to “lean in” to shave! The GOOD SIDE of that is, just like a filter on a camera, some things look better, prettier, at a distance, or they are “blurred up” a bit. YOU all look FANTASTIC! Christmas lights are a wonder, etc. But on the flip side, the mirror is telling me that I’m losing my eyesight to glaucoma…well, to be honest, the Eye Doctor is telling me that as well. But no matter WHAT the mirror says, I see perfectly…I KNOW that in my mind, and always will…even when they drag me, screaming obscenities, from the BMV.
I look in the mirror, expecting to see ME and instead I see my dad…or my grandpa! The GOOD SIDE of that is I think about my great Dad, I hear his voice, I remember some great times, and I miss him, and mourn him, in a healthy way…on the flip side, I know that I’m NOT as old as my dad, nor will I ever be. No matter WHAT the mirror says, I AM 27 years old, and always will be. I’m not my dad, I’m his son.
I look in the mirror and expect to see someone I know, someone who lives inside my head…but I often see a stranger. The mirror lies…that’s not me.
Sometimes I look in the mirror and see an awkward kid who wasn’t good at sports, only moderately doing well in school, unpopular and introverted…the mirror lies, that is no longer “me”.
Sometimes I look and see a failure…the mirror lies.
Sometimes I see a broken man…the mirror lies.
Unfortunately, what I’ve learned through a life of performing and recording is this: in this world, unedited mirrors, cameras, and recordings don’t lie, when it comes to what the world sees. They are brutal, they are raw, they are ruthless. They are also flat and shallow reflections, looking only on the outside of a person. They only see a shell. They also have the ability to trigger lies that we tell ourselves and lies that the rest of the world has told us.
What I’ve learned as a Believer & Follower is: it’s important that one uses the CORRECT mirror, held by the RIGHT person.
There is one “mirror” that matters in my life, and it’s not one of the 3.5 million that are in my condo…it is my reflection in Jesus’ eyes. What is seen in this world, on this “physical plane”, is not who I really am…it’s not what is “real” in His eyes…the mirrors here really DO lie about who I truly am.
I am who my God says I am.
And He says:
– I’m whole, not broken
– successful, not a failure
– confident, not awkward
– not a stranger, but HIS child: known, understood, accepted, & loved.
What HE sees, matters. He sees is my “forever self”, my “real self”, the “diamond hidden within the stone”. However, in a way, one of the “lies” I mentioned above is actually a TRUTH: If I choose to let let it be so, if I choose to let Him love me and lead me…
…I can be, am, and always will be, a reflection of my “Father.”
“For now we see indistinctly, as in a mirror, but then face to face.
Now I know in part, but then I will know fully, as I am fully known.”
I CORINTHIANS 13:12